Friday, July 13, 2012
Our journey in video
Thank you to my wonderful husband who made this video. He made it with no input from me at all. Good summary of our journey through the past 5 years from the lows of my pregnancy to the highs of surrogacy.
His music choice is also perfect. I can't tell you how many prayers we as a family have sent heavenward regarding this aspect of our life. Prayer has been a huge part of this experience. I am here to tell you that I know that the Lord answers our prayers of faith. Thankfully, our story had a very happy ending. But even if it had not, I still know that the Lord is mindful of us and knows what is best for us in the end since we are unable to see the big picture.
If you go back to the first posts of this blog, you notice I have a very "I'm-going-on-a-surrogacy-journey-it-will-be-fun!-come-along" type of attitude. It was almost too easy: Sacrifice financially a bit (ok, a lot) and then bingo: you get a baby. I think the Lord needed to make it take years and many failures and heart breaks to make it work. We were going to quit last year. We had made up our mind. But Dr. Foulk gave us one more extreme step we could take to make it work. It took fasting, prayer and a huge leap of faith but it worked.
I know that the Lord custom makes our trials for all of us. They are designed to make a stronger, better people. He chooses what will be most trying to us and put us on the verge of breaking...so we need him. So that we can use the atonement of Christ to take the pain away. The atonement is already completed: Christ suffered for not only our sins but also our pains both physical and emotional. We don't have to carry the burden ourselves. We just need to utilize the atonement.
I know that these trials and experiences have changed me. I feel so much more sensitive to people around me who are suffering. I've been learned patience and to rely on the Lord and less on myself. I've learned to easily let other less eternity-altering trials go. I don't even blink at a trial if it doesn't affect my family's eternity.
Thanks for coming caring enough to read my blog. This is a beautiful ending to a long sad story. And we lived happily ever after.....THE END.