Almost ruined chances

I had my baseline ultrasound a few days ago. They check things out before they start me on the "big-guns" meds. So as the NP was doing the ultrasound I decided to verify dosages with her just to be safe. Good thing I did too. As it turns out they had given me written instructions to take 7 amps of 2 different medications when it was only supposed to be 4 amps. The NP made some calls and verified that I couldn't possibly be taking that much and she was right. Typ-o. She said that a dose of 7 amps would have hyperstimulated me (and thus hospitalized me) fairly quickly. I'm so glad I verified the dose!

Side Effects

I don't want this posting to sound like a complaint, I just wanted to document some of the side effects of my meds. So, keeping in mind that all of these side effects are manageable, here they are:

Loestrin FE (birthcontrol): Moodiness (PMS-like), weight gain, ACNE, nausea unless I took them before bed with food, nausea if I ever was awake very long during the night.

Doxi..(antibiotic) a tiny bit of upset stomach

Lupron: Extreme grumpiness for the first 2 days which turned into severe grumpiness afterwards. Weight gain, bloated feeling, tender abdomen.

I take my last BCP tonight which I'm hoping will lift my mood a bit. My poor family is sick of me.

Sad Day

Today (August 5th) was the due date for my baby. I was forced to abort the baby back in January because of my health. Tonight I'm having a hard time with it (to be expected I guess). I keep questioning whether I could have somehow avoided aborting the baby. I go through it all in my head over and over. I was so sick/medicated it was just a huge terrible blur. I have nothing profound to blog about it-- I just wanted to tell the blogger void that I'm sad and I wish I would have had a baby today.

I am, however, grateful that this surrogacy is planned and happening soon. I know for sure I would feel 10X worse had that pregnancy been the last chance for having my own children.

Meds

Jane starts her meds today. I'm all anxious because she is currently on vacation. I hope she rememberd to take them with her. She is such a laid back person and I am so type-A personality I'm always worried about what she is doing.
All of my meds arrived today. I start next week.
I went to pick up my birth control pills (part of my med regimine) at my local pharmacy today). I had my 2 toddlers with me. I'm not sure if I imagined it or not, but the pharmacy chick looked at me with my 2 busy toddlers (unloading shelves) and though "yep, you need this birth control". I laughed inside. Little did she know...